Ending with Hope

At the beginning of this year, e-skyoo [askew] was born... with no precise direction or goal. Mainly as a product of my own self-growth over the past three years, I made a decision to reach out to others who may share some of the same experiences and impairments.

I have used this blog to tell my stories, offer encouragement, provide advice and purge my soul at times. So much has occurred in my life over these last few months, and I have divulged much here. I have truly enjoyed connecting to my readers... realizing we have more in common than I ever expected. That discovery has been of great benefit to me in ways that you can not comprehend and I thank you one and all.

I have posted very little in the last couple weeks for several reasons. First I have been busy beyond my capabilities, so instead of just throwing something out there, I held tight to the belief that I would eventually have more time to write. I feel I owe the few loyal readers I have my best work.

Secondly, I have been going through a period of emotional turmoil and stress. I didn’t want to spew the depression I find myself in onto these pages. I would rather offer support and solutions.

Pain also has a way of zapping my creativity, but I know that it will not last forever. I feel selfish for thinking my problems are so big, that my suffering is insurmountable. In truth, when I am honest with myself and get out of my own crazy head, I know that I have tons to be grateful for. My petty crap is nothing in comparison to the hardship and adversity others are presently facing.


The final reason that I have been reluctant to throw myself into my writing has to do with growth... that of my blog and personally. I recently questioned myself as to what the objective of e-skyoo was to be... which direction was it heading? Using your feedback and comments from the last four months as a guide, I have come to understand that I actually might have something to share that can help others. In the right format, I could possibly facilitate change in someone else’s life by sharing my experiences--not just stories or events, but solutions that have worked and are working in my life.

Embarking upon this self-led journey over the last few years, has resulted in incredible growth and ever increasing joy. And as my happiness and fulfillment begins to flourish, I am compelled to share what has worked and what hasn’t. I no longer want to isolate myself or my issues. Keeping secrets was exhausting and lonely. Sharing has brought peace and transformation, as well as unbelievable closeness to others.

Hopefully without sounding pretentious, I think I am becoming a better person... happier, but also less self-absorbed. As the official glass-half-empty-girl, who would have thought that connecting with and helping others would have meaning for me. I certainly never imagined this path. But my journey is just begun.

With that recognized, I had to honestly evaluate e-skyoo... though it has been an amazing experience, I must leave it behind for something new. Initially, I was planning to transfer eskyoo.blogspot.com to eskyoo.com. But if my blog (and life) is to have a more distinct purpose, I realize it isn’t going to be that simple.

This is not an end, but a beginning; my blogging days are not over. I have already began formulating plans for a new blog that will have a more focused direction... but unfortunately there are technical details to be worked out. In order to get through that annoying process (as I am a technology idiot) as quickly as possible, I must put aside writing until I complete development of my new site. Then I can throw myself into writing, with the goal of offering readers the best, most useful articles that I can. I hope you will join me on this journey, discovering new levels of happiness and fulfillment.

I will keep you posted on the progress of my new blog. I also would love to hear from all of you regarding what you have liked most and/or least about e-skyoo. I welcome all feedback, as it will help me immensely in my future endeavors. Please, please, please leave comments here or on Facebook.

Thank you again for being a part of e-skyoo! Your amazing support and encouragement has given me new hope to dream and achieve the unimaginable.

Live. Breathe. It is not fear that we need to live by, but joy, hope. Inside you, in your ocean, maybe it seems barren; maybe it feels as if there is no hope, no kindness, no reason for happiness. But deep within you, undeniably, something rumbles, cries out, wants to be born. Allow the joy to come forward. Allow the hope to exist. -Maharaji